I’ve always had a hard time getting excited about the new year.
The interval between New Year’s Day and my January birthday inspire me to take stock of the preceding 12 months, examining all the things I set out to do, the things I accomplished and the surprises that popped up along the way. But every year at about this time, I usually spend more time thinking about all the ways I lost sight of my goals – or kept sight of them and fell short anyway. I can’t help but look at where I thought I’d be by now, and I always wonder what happened to divert me from my goals.
Where am I? Can I still get to where I want to be? Do I still want to be there?
Then, after a few days of New Year’s blues, my annual case of This Year Will Be Different sets in. This is when I set this year’s goals, sometimes wiping the old slate clean and sometimes adjusting previous aspirations for this year’s uses. The excitement is a nice change from New Year’s blues. I’m not a huge believer in the New Year’s resolution per se – typically because I have trouble choosing a specific resolution – but an arrangement of goals and a set of life changes geared toward accomplishing them can inspire me right up until I hit the first setback. I’ve written about the timely appearance of setbacks before, here.
But in the spirit of the season, and after a four-month absence from this blog (now that definitely deepened the New Year’s blues), I’ve decided that This Year Will Be Different. I’ve already started doing some things differently.
First off, I’m taking Margie Lawson’s Defeating Self-Defeating Behaviors class. I don’t want to go into it too much here – there is a lot of material, and it’s terrific – but let’s just say that my previous goal-setting methods were perhaps less than optimal. I’m trying out her methods now, and the idea of setting a daily set of goals instead of a yearly roster of them, which can cascade down at the slightest disruption, has worked out brilliantly so far.
Secondly, I’ve started doing the unthinkable. I’ve started getting up earlier. Much earlier. Like, are-you-serious-it’s-still-dark-out earlier.
And I love it.
There’s nothing going on around here at 5:30 in the morning. When I’m traveling, I find that 5:30 or so is a great time to check out the streets of a big city, to watch the way it’s just waking up. The world is at its most open then, vulnerable and authentic and receptive to observation. It’s a great time to take stock of the day to come and a wonderful time to be writing. I always thought my mind would be too foggy to write, but so far the opposite’s been true.
The other upside is that by the time I get to work, I’ve been up for several hours. I feel better about my day job in a strange way – it’s like it’s okay to deal with that now that I’ve already given several hours to my real work. The writing feels more like my first priority if I’m actually doing it first.
And finally, I’m going out on a limb more often this year. I’m working harder at putting the writing out there. Above my desk right now I’ve got 16 index cards, each of which has the name (or the main characters) of one of my story ideas on it. Sixteen’s a lot, but I’ve found that looking at them every time I sit down here is making it easier for me to commit some of each day’s work to one of them.
Also from the Out On A Limb files – I’ve entered my very first pitch into a contest. Over at the group blog, Passionate Reads, my pitch for Project NSA is posted with 25 or so others, all of us vying for the attention of Ellora’s Cave editor Grace Bradley. She’ll pick 10 of them herself to move on to the next round (entry of the first chapter), but the pitch that receives the most votes from blog visitors will also be moving forward to the next round, if it’s not among the 10 she’s already chosen. Honestly, it feels good just to be in the company of all the other terrific pitches. But – also honestly – it’d feel pretty good to take the top prize, which is a line-by-line critique of my first three chapters.
So I’m asking you all for a favor. Visit the contest page, and pick one of us to vote for. I’d definitely appreciate your vote, of course, but be sure and pick the pitch you like the best! I’ll appreciate your attention all the more if I know I’ve earned it.
And then maybe you’ll come back here to let me know how your 2011 is going so far. You know how much I love to hear from you!